i love u.

dear papa mama,

thanks for giving me everything. thanks for your patience.

when i was wrong, you told me what is right.

you know what is best for me, and you gave me your best.

and now i want to say,

I LOVE YOU.

dear gor gors,

thanks for being there for me.

i remember when i was young, you guys were there for me, when i was in tears.

you guys were there for me again, when i was in excitement.

those moments we spent together, i treasure each and every of it.

and now i want to say

I LOVE YOU.

dear ss family members,

thanks for listening to me always.

mukie, remember those times i called you and i burst into tears.

you did not say a word, what you did was just, listened.

mei mei, sim sim, yin yin and wai hong, distances are keeping us apart now, and i really miss y'all.

and now i want to say

I LOVE YOU.

dear ALL my friends,

sorry because i couldn't name each and everyone of you here. but i'm pretty sure you know who you are.

thanks for making my life wonderful.

i really couldn't imagine how my life would be if it's without you.

i know i'm those type of girl who complains always, and i'm glad that you did not ignore me.

you were there for me.

and now i want to say

I LOVE YOU.

it's 1118. and i'm a year older.

i really wish all people to be in pink of health, and world peace. =D

I AM EVERYTHING I AM, BECAUSE YOU LOVED ME.

and now i want to say,

I LOVE YOU

oh ya. not to forget, my little sweatheart, lucky zai.

you know jie jie loves you always. muacks kyky.

p/s - my mom sent me a sms at 12am sharp and i nearly cried. thanks mom. i really love u. heart heart! and the cari gang kidnapped me to TTS 5. and they made me nearly cried too. i'm thankful. for having you all around me.

(photo taken by Holga 135 BC with Kodak EBX, cross processed.)

Be lonely, then.

让记忆长出翅膀 飞翔

心放空了 寂寞 好了

-蔡旻佑《寂寞，好了》

p/s - go listen to evan yo's latest album. i heart this song a lot a lot. =D heart this picture a lot a lot too. but i seriously got no time to lomo now. =( assignment kills. argh!

(photo taken by Holga 135BC with Kodak EBX, cross processed)

arghh.

recently im so busy busy busy busy busy. =(

come, let's runaway from all these.
>.<

let's go!

p/s - im really busy busy busy busy busy lor. =( sorry for not updating as often as before.

(photo taken by Holga 135 BC, Kodak EBX 100, cross processed.)

那天 * 地铁站 * 一个人

那天 一个人
was alone,

才发现，路途再遥远，再艰难。
then realized, no matter how tough it is,

还是要一个人面对。
i'll still need to overcome it, all on my own.

因为这人生是我的。
because, this is my life.


p/s - be responsible to my life, i told myself. recently im quite emo on some random but not-so-random stuffs. argh. i feel sorry to those who I scolded or offended, due to my emo-ness. =)

(photo taken by Fisheye No.2 with Agfa ProPack 200.)

dreams

it was fated, i believe.
i came across this child sponsorship scheme by World Vision some years ago, when i was reading readers digest.
i told myself, one day if i could afford to sponsor one child, i will do so.

then, last year december, i volunteered myself again for One Life Revolution Aids Awareness Campaign by World Vision.
my friend came up with the idea, "hey, i wanna sponsor a child, and you?"
i said, "only if somebody would share with me, because i can't afford to sponsor one child at the moment, but half of it, it's okay for me."
and he said, "oh yea, why not let's share?"
im not sure whether he remembers the real situation, but i can remember it quite well.
because it was a chance, a start, to what i've dreamt of always.

and we constantly contributed RM50 a month for the child, a young and healthy boy called Kumar from India.
it was his birthday and we decided to send him a greeting card.
we did not expect a reply, but we knew we want him to be happy with the card.

months later, we received a reply letter.
i almost burst into tears when i read the translation (because it was in tamil words and world vision staffs got it translated into english)



it was written like this,

"I am being promoted from the grade 5 to the grade 6. I am studying well and doing well in the school. I received the greeting card that you sent to me. Thank you so much. I showed it to my friends and my family and enjoyed doing so.
Thank you for all the help that you have been doing for my family and me. I am praying to the lord almighty for you and your family well-being."

a simple letter, with simple grammar.
but it means a lot to me.
happiness of a child, it's priceless.
i'm glad that i brought happiness to him.

people around me often ask me, why doing voluntary works, which is zero income?
let me tell you my friends, charity works bring no money, but they pay u unlimited love and happiness.
again i would say, it's priceless.
i mean people, we should not frame our dreams. in the sense of, dreams can be anything.
not only high goals, big money...
but to love, can be a dream too.


having your dream as realising the others' dream, would you?

i am doing what i can to love. and you?

p/s - one of my friends told me that he kinda like my blog posts and they're not lame at all. i'm glad. thanks, my friend. it's such a huge encouragement for me to blog on. =)